Saturday, 8 December 2012
Hello!
been days since my lasted update isn't it ?
Nothing much happen recently , just basically surfing the internet at home
gaming , watching JLU ( Justice League Unlimited ) on YouTube
HOHO! Don't believe me ? i watched every seasons every episodes , And i'm proud of it :)
I'm a Huge fan of Superman and Batman :3
not that the remaining 5 isn't great but those two really stand out pretty much :3
and here a Picture to dedicate to them :p
But this isnt the point :P you know , despite the darkest clouds in my life .
Im really a luckily guy aftermaths, why ?
Well , this few days really made me understand how fragile we human actually are .
If i didnt remember wrongly , it was probably wednesday.
when i almost saw death in gun point . I was trying to make scramble eggs for myself
Well , you guess it ! I almost burned my house down.
Coming face to face with that scorching flame is like seeing death itself >.<
I admit , I was frightened , petrified ... I jumped In horror .
after the flame was finally conquered , I thought Hades had done playing with me ....
but I was wrong , soon after that flaming incident ... i almost coke on my lunch >.<
I was kneeling before the toilet bowl trying to clear my airway ...
i was suffocating to a point that i could literally see my life flashes before me ....
With ladyluck by my side , I manage to lives through this 2 living nightmare :D
After the pandemonium , I questioned my own unluckiness :P think twice ....
I felt that sometime we shouldnt asked for more , because with the same given situation ...
Things and outcome could be alot worse den the actual ones :)
I am thankful for the fact that i survive this simultaneous tread of terror :3
But I'm no believer , so I have no direct gratitude towards the superior immortal ~
Well , everyday is a lesson to be learned .
And thought this incident , I truly appreciate the fact that I'm breathing .... alive :)
I hereby swore that with is given gifts of life from the gods ,
i will someday to do something big with it :) a service to humanity ~
Thats all for tonight ,
Till next time , thanks for visiting :)
The darkest nights beats the brightest days ~
(in love with a goddess)
Saturday, December 08, 2012
Saturday, December 08, 2012
Sunday, 2 December 2012
Today post isn't gonna a cheerful one ~
is it gonna be wordy ? no idea either ... ...
i will try to make it as straight as possible :)
have you even felt like a stunt double ? a Perfectionist of Imperfection ?
it seems like whatever i do , there's always a hole in a bag ... ...
there's always room for mistake to be pointed out .
Criticises is a "EveryDay" thing for me , buried deep under those word
i could hardly breath ... ... I'm not Exaggerating nor asking for sympathy .
I'm expression my feelings into words , these is how i literally felt like on the inside .
feeling hollow and a "waste of space" , i couldn't sees the need of doing anything .
I'm drench both physically and mentally . i'm sick , i have flu ~
i hope there's someone for me to talk to ... ...
yea right , you have no friend remember !? :)
everyone that's to talk to you always have string attached .
either they them self are having difficulties with Family and friends or asking for help .
once they feel better and done using you . you are a nothing less than stranger to them .
i admit , i do have some random conversation sometimes :)
but its always me looking for someone and not the other way round .
the feeling of me being annoying and unwanted toward them is skyrocketing .
i do have friends , but that's a year ago ;') my "Family" is slowly drifting away from me ...
i lost quite a large number of friends this year ... ...
its heartening ... ....
haiz , i sometimes wonder who could really sees the tear of sadness behind the laughter ?
my School Friend thinks I'm cool , some even think told me I'm a perfectionist .
well , not so cool huh ? you know my Name , not my story .
AHHH! felt so much better :)
a big thanks to those who would actually finish reading :D
(in love with a goddess)
Sunday, December 02, 2012
Sunday, December 02, 2012
