Tuesday, 5 March 2013
Like i said, i will try to update regularly. most likely once or twice a week
so i guess i fulfill the promises i previously made ? :)
Anyway, i just discharge from hospital this afternoon, reason ?
sorry, i don't let my personal information fly around.
believe it or not, i often consider myself an overly "reserved" kind of person.
i never truly revel any personal difficulties or weaknesses to anyone, literally.
not that i doesn't trust those people around me or anything similar.
but instead, i felt that this world is just too vicious.
people take advantages from others weaknesses and strings them like puppets
let alone those that you call "friends" just a few day of communication
worst. Those that befriend you with strings attached , having a motive.
take me for instance, i regard myself as a easy going person :)
i forgive and forget, never take grudges. i take friendship seriously.
but before i open myself to others , i will do my studies.
trust me, gathering those info its a lot easier than you think.
Internet is vasts and dangerous. people tend to loosen them self online than in reality.
using this gathered intelligence as my arsenal. thus, if i was ever stabbed.
those traitor will suffer even more.
HAH! sound like i'm making this up ? you can try me :)
but words for words , i means no harm to anyone.
i only uses that method for inevitable circumstances.
i believe this is only for self defense purposes.
Anyway, back to main. sorry for drifting off.
discharge this Morning, tried to have luncheon with my "Brothers" in Tampines.
sadly, its a fruitless attempt. they were busy.
i don't blamed them. isn't their fault in the first place.
my time and their time crushed so yea, its fated.
so i made my way back to Yishun around noon ? late afternoon i presume
can't really pin-point the exact timing, i'm having a stuffy head right now >.<
played some Computer games, bath and eat dinner.
that's about it ? yup. that's all. nothing special ~
come to think about it , i never place my crush's photo on my blog.
fearing that she might or someone close might sees it.
i guess i'm gonna take the first step, fear isn't gonna change anything.
facing fear there's two option : 1) let it crumble you 2) fight it and change for the better .
so, for the very first time i'm letting this go, the fear that stringed me.
BOOM! this is her, my Crush. for 5 years now <3
My Pitiful attempt to drew her T.T
i did this when i'm confine in bed. i know i screw up.
but i believe it's sincerity that counts.
being confine to bed for three days, neither dreadful nor enjoyable.
i did a lot of self reflection, trying to make a differences.
looking at things i ever encounter in a different angle.
trying to lift this gloomy cloud that suffocated my mentally drenched head .
frankly, i did sees the light, i know what i want. and i found the needed motivation too :)
I'm not gonna wait for miracle to happen, i'm going to make it happen.
going to try confessing to her by this year, most probably late September.
hopefully, it will turn out the way i wanted :) wishes me luck!
things i learned :
never make things complicated. you want you ask , you doesn't you tell.
simple. but why are we, ourself are making things so hard ? Empathy ?
HAH! you are you , make a difference .
go and write your story ~
lastly, thanks for visiting :)
(in love with a goddess)
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
Tuesday, March 05, 2013
